Our Goldfish Bowl

We lived and loved for many years
surrounded by our solitude,
then yesterday truth burst on us
and broke our precious crystal bowl.

So now we lie on concrete floors
gasping grabbing the air for support,
waiting for the cat of fate
to end the misery, save the soul.

Bad Poetry, Real Suicide Attempt

I have failed
and in failing have failed you.
Your love, your trust, your faith
in me, are lost to me.

I have failed
and in failing have failed life
for the evening sun has paled
to show in hand my naked knife.

Cherish

When I was young and gentle dreams did weave
there came to me a spark of fire-you!-
through my impregnable sieve
of those to like, to love, adore
for ne'er a stranger stranger's face who bore.

My love for you has doubled, tripled since
it's avenues of escape you have shut out
forgave me most of my unbidden sins
left me to do my penance for the rest
and held me weeping to your tender breast.

If gods should choose to let us stay awhile
and let me ponder on their mysteries great
I'll have the time to cherish your last smile
and seeing them make this wish for certainty
I want you for my own for eternity.

Love Less Scary

To need you a little less
to want you not as much
to hold you and not feel
the blood drumming
in every pore of my skin,
all this is scary.
To love you differently
or not at all is scary.

The Other Side of Night

I shut out the night
night I had never seen.
I mourned the day end
the sunlight that had been
my only time with you.
Then I met night and knew
that I would never be
afraid of love.
the dark was mine,
a lover like you.

And Still the Night is Dark

You lie beside me
and still the night is dark.
The light of our togetherness
shining through the day
burning through the night
lies dim - cold - on my heart.
Alone, alone you lie beside me
and still the night is dark.

On Undoing the Past/The Path to Healing

The pain goes so deep...you said
...and I said
the unconscious
...as it struggles
to keep the vows we made
as unknowing babies
just to survive
until we awaken to
the Giant within
filled with joy and bliss
and love for ourselves
so that it spills over
into enough to share
with others
like I feel for you right now.
And you said...Stop...
my cheeks are wet now.