Tithonus

Emptiness surrounds me
to vie with the emptiness within me,
this hollowed gape was once
my hallowed cape, valley, mountain.

All nature was me and I nature
trees grass sky rain did in me dwell
now all in nature, as I am
is sleet and ice and falls and swells
to every rising...falling...pulse of mine
and slows...or does it stop?

No that for me can never be
for I live on and on to see
Man fight man; country, country.
This wish on me no wish can be
The curse within, the curse without.

Our Goldfish Bowl

We lived and loved for many years
surrounded by our solitude,
then yesterday truth burst on us
and broke our precious crystal bowl.

So now we lie on concrete floors
gasping grabbing the air for support,
waiting for the cat of fate
to end the misery, save the soul.

Bad Poetry, Real Suicide Attempt

I have failed
and in failing have failed you.
Your love, your trust, your faith
in me, are lost to me.

I have failed
and in failing have failed life
for the evening sun has paled
to show in hand my naked knife.

Cherish

When I was young and gentle dreams did weave
there came to me a spark of fire-you!-
through my impregnable sieve
of those to like, to love, adore
for ne'er a stranger stranger's face who bore.

My love for you has doubled, tripled since
it's avenues of escape you have shut out
forgave me most of my unbidden sins
left me to do my penance for the rest
and held me weeping to your tender breast.

If gods should choose to let us stay awhile
and let me ponder on their mysteries great
I'll have the time to cherish your last smile
and seeing them make this wish for certainty
I want you for my own for eternity.

Love Less Scary

To need you a little less
to want you not as much
to hold you and not feel
the blood drumming
in every pore of my skin,
all this is scary.
To love you differently
or not at all is scary.

The Other Side of Night

I shut out the night
night I had never seen.
I mourned the day end
the sunlight that had been
my only time with you.
Then I met night and knew
that I would never be
afraid of love.
the dark was mine,
a lover like you.

And Still the Night is Dark

You lie beside me
and still the night is dark.
The light of our togetherness
shining through the day
burning through the night
lies dim - cold - on my heart.
Alone, alone you lie beside me
and still the night is dark.