Monday, June 18, 2018

My Pegasus

Here he lies
the mentor of my dreams
the listener to my weary woes
who knew me well from head to toe
who joined with cheer in all my schemes
and needed no goodbyes.

No more will I ride him, blithe and free
nor see him jump the fences high
nor feel his hide, taut under my palm
I cannot cry, he taught me calm
and left me with a sigh
to find rest under his favorite tree.

No longer will I smell the tangy scent of him
no longer sense the thrill of touching fleeting boughs
nor stray to see the twilight on his back
nor feel him extra oats in his gunnysack
nor run him after unresisting cows
nor let him follow all his heartly whims.

No more will the sunshine play hide and seek
on his shining coat of black
or the the sweat drops glisten bright
on his forehead star of white
nor his breath go in and back
though of him his stall will reek.

Will he have enough to eat, I wonder...
where he's gone had better be warm
'cause he's left his rug behind
and I hope his stable boys are kind
to shield him from heavenly storms,
it's from up there that raging storms to earth wander.

Life without him I can't fathom
though Mama says I'll get over
losses like these that death demands
life of me my Life commands.
And she says she'll get me Rover
but a dog would only be his phantom.

His memory haunts me now and then
I've tried to teach my children too,
to love all creatures like their own
and not to fear the grave unknown,
to cherish Life and help the few
whose life depends on them.

To His Widow, On His Dying

In the heaps of fallen leaves
among the hordes of fallen faces
I stand, an oak, sheltering all.
All around me the sky is falling
in jagged blue pieces
the sky is falling.

Tithonus

Emptiness surrounds me
to vie with the emptiness within me,
this hollowed gape was once
my hallowed cape, valley, mountain.

All nature was me and I nature
trees grass sky rain did in me dwell
now all in nature, as I am
is sleet and ice and falls and swells
to every rising...falling...pulse of mine
and slows...or does it stop?

No that for me can never be
for I live on and on to see
Man fight man; country, country.
This wish on me no wish can be
The curse within, the curse without.

Our Goldfish Bowl

We lived and loved for many years
surrounded by our solitude,
then yesterday truth burst on us
and broke our precious crystal bowl.

So now we lie on concrete floors
gasping grabbing the air for support,
waiting for the cat of fate
to end the misery, save the soul.

Saturday, June 9, 2018

Bad Poetry, Real Suicide Attempt

I have failed
and in failing have failed you.
Your love, your trust, your faith
in me, are lost to me.

I have failed
and in failing have failed life
for the evening sun has paled
to show in hand my naked knife.

Thursday, June 7, 2018

Cherish

When I was young and gentle dreams did weave
there came to me a spark of fire-you!-
through my impregnable sieve
of those to like, to love, adore
for ne'er a stranger stranger's face who bore.

My love for you has doubled, tripled since
it's avenues of escape you have shut out
forgave me most of my unbidden sins
left me to do my penance for the rest
and held me weeping to your tender breast.

If gods should choose to let us stay awhile
and let me ponder on their mysteries great
I'll have the time to cherish your last smile
and seeing them make this wish for certainty
I want you for my own for eternity.

Friday, May 25, 2018

Love Less Scary

To need you a little less
to want you not as much
to hold you and not feel
the blood drumming
in every pore of my skin,
all this is scary.
To love you differently
or not at all is scary.